I'm back and I have a surprise!!!

So - I've been feeling really conflicted about posting lately... I feel guilty when I go for a long time without posting, BUT - everything I would want to write about centers around this one key thing...

And I've been keeping the 'thing' from most everyone (except family, and when Fouz can't keep a secret).

But, I find myself nearing towards the end of the 'socially acceptable' grace period of silence (well, it doesn't officially end until February 5th... but according to my doctor, trimesters are bogus anyway - fabricated by politicians in the 70's to create abortion laws)

Anyway so the big secret is - I'm Pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!

The blueberry is due August 5th, 2010.

Blueberry's backgound story: Jon & I were NOT trying: our method of BC failed. Really, it was the hand of God - He is positioning our family for what is to come. Thus - blueberry (raspberry, olive, strawberry, lime, and now plum). We were taken by surprise. Actually, the week before thanksgiving, I was so tired (had NO idea why) so I made the decision to scale back on ALL the things I do during the week (normally, I'm busy 4 nights out of 5). Then, the thought occured to me: what if? So I bought a pregnancy test before thankgiving, according to the box, it can detect up to 5 days before LMP, so that would put us squarely on Friday AM. Jon & I went down to NJ for thanksgiving - so I brought one with me. I told Jon: "I brought a test, just in case we can't wait to find out" and he decided that we needed to wait at least until we got home from NJ, because he "wouldn't be able to concentrate on anything." so we drove back friday night, I woke up Saturday AM, and sure enough, bright pink plus sign on the indicator. I showed Jon. his response was "does that mean, we're positive you're NOT pregnant" I said, "Not so much..."

So there we were 7AM - we had 15 people coming over our house for a Primerica training at 10AM, and my whole family coming over for a turkey dinner at 3PM. the two of us (well, five if you count the ever present pet brigade) sat in amazement on the bed for about an hour. saying things like "Wow" and "should I take the other one to make sure?" and "purr" and *tail wag!*

we decided to not tell anyone for a while. we held out until my mom's birthday (Dec 1). we brought her out to dinner at Chili's and I wrote in her card "I couldn't think of anything else to get you, so how about another grandkid. delivery expected Aug 5th." She was so excited!!!

After that, we held off (except for Fouz who knows everything) until Christmas when we told both sides of the family. My brother Jeff & his wife Elizabeth are expecting Feb 12th, so blueberry will be 6 months younger than their baby. For the most part, everyone was excited for us. It came as a HUGE shock to Jon's family (they never see us, so they didn't suspect one bit), but somehow my whole family all pretty much knew or highly suspected well before they were told.

The best was Jon's dad's reaction: he was so excited, he was pumping his arms in the air, jumping out of his seat! Hilarous!

Life never goes exactely how you think it will, is it? It's better. The thought of all of this is so new and foreign to me. I always knew I wanted kids, but thought it'd be really hard for me to conceive, so we'd have to wait a few years or something. I don't know why I thought that way... but this all happened so soon - we had only been married 2 months when we found out. But babies, they are a whole new bag for me - I was the youngest out of all of my cousins, so I never had too much exposure to babies. It's a whole new world. One that 7.5 years of college and 5 years of radar engineering has NOT prepared me for! Thank GOD that I have family nearby to help me figure this out -Mama Keegan is only 10 minutes away!!!

That's all for now - I'll let you all soak it in :)